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"I am carrying on a great project and cannot come down" Nehemiah 6:3

Recently our small group was doing a study by Andy Stanley entitled Guardrails. One of the sessions his wife joins him in leading as they discuss these guardrails they have set in their marriage. In the midst of this discussion there is a point where she is talking about having three very young children and how needy they were in this particular season of life. She recalls reading in Nehemiah about the temple being rebuilt and how Nehemiah was trying to rebuild the temple but their was a group of people who didn't want it rebuilt. So they schemed against him and tried to invite him to gather with them and forget what he was doing. But he responds to them, "I am carrying on a great project and cannot come down." She then proceeds to tell us how this struck a chord with her. How she saw this time in life with her kids as a particular season God wanted her to pour into them. So when things came along (all good things) that she maybe would normally do or want to do she would repeat this verse.

Now all of this struck a chord with me. I had already known that this season in life for me had to be different. My husband and I decided to have our children close together which has led to 4 children under the age of 5. This season in our life is extremely busy, and by a lot of failure I am slowly realizing that I am carrying on a great project and cannot come down. 

Unfortunately there is not a users manual that comes with each of my children. But I do have God's Word, and I know that He wants my children to come to love and know Him on their own. It is my job to help them know who He is. I am Jesus to my children.

This blog is dedicated to my navigating those waters. My faults are many... I loose my temper, don't have it all together, am messy, have to tame my tongue, have to apologize often. At times these things are overwhelming as I wonder if God may have chosen a better mother for these children. It is in those moments I'm reminded that I am made perfect in Him. God provides for all of my shortfalls and that He who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it. 

I press on to win the prize. God is preparing me for His prize, but I cannot win without training. This season in life is my training to be the mother God has me to be... the mother He desires me to be. Each and every day I am in training.

Join me as I take this journey.